Where your teacher just told you to keep writing and not to stop and think, I thought that this would be a great experiment to do on a blog now that I'm older, more mature and have a sharpened mind. I'll be doing that on this blog now. Spelling errors and all. I haven't done this exercise in about well since like 8th grade or so... But here goes... So everyone is getting in a relationship and dating and stuff these days and I think it just has to do with the time of the year... Tis the season! I'm not jealous or anything... at least I don't think I am. I'm quite happy for those people actually. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't want that for myself... But I'm a guy. I'm independant. I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy. But still. It'd be nice to have a woman. Work. Work's okay. Recently they increased the difficulty of our call volume. I didn't even know they sorted calls on difficulty level or anything. I just saw my phone program say "Advanced" on it this week and yeah... Calls are starting to suck more than they previously did.. Oh well.. At least I'm making more money now than I was when I was a dougie instructor... That's code for unemployed living with my parents. So Ryne's getting a car. Good for him. I'm buying it, so that's cool. He wants to get an SUV and looks like I already got my loan approved. Wow. I'm so vain. I am talking about money money and girls. God is great. I've been going to Willow Creek Baptist Church and that place is pretty awesome. The preaching is great and it really hits me hard. The focus in small groups hits home and really gets me going on accountability on my testimony. I need stuff like that to keep me going. I loved CBC and everything, but I just felt like I didn't belong there. My pet peeve is like you having a good conversation with someone and when you see them next... Maybe on campus, they'll pretend like they don't know you and don't even say hi or anything. That's a lot of the Faith Kids thought. Or that could just be me being critical on myself. But anyways I have to become a better me. Go out there not fearing rejection for a 'hi' or anything. I'm a grown man but I still feel those little high school insecurities.. I wonder if that will ever stop. Speaking of awkward moments, I heard my ex gf was in town... In fact I even heard that she went to go watch dorm ball and we were even in teh same room together... Before I even started dating her though I never really noticed her presence.. Even when she lead the kids in choir or played piano.. I just never really noticed her. My friend said it was probably good that I didnt see her because I don't avoid awkward situations.. I run right into them... Wow. I guess that's a little contradictory.. Me feeling insecure and awkward about even saying hi to someone i know from church but on the flipside saying something to my ex gf who pretty much ex communicated me from her life. I really wanted to be friends but I guess some of that just doesn't work out. I've been studying First Corinthians in my Devos.. God's been teaching me a lot in Romans and in 1 Cor these days but more particularly divisions in the church. Am I in the wrong for not being on speaking terms with a sister in Christ.. Is that the division? She does live far far away... So I don't know. All I know is that I have let everything go from that 2 week relationship.. but we had a really great friendship while that lasted. I really gotta start putting myself out there and being more outgoing. And here I was trying to move to Northern California.. I'd be a social mess if I moved. I just hope that God grows me good in my time In Iowa. Not in a physical sense though.
Well that was eventful.
What did I learn from that?
He must increase. I must decrease.
