Tuesday, March 29, 2011

It's Been More Than Half a Year

Yep... Since I've left the golden coast of my beautiful hometown of Long Beach, California. It's really tough being away from my family. I know that if my ten year old self finds the time portal that I'm leaving for him, and he reads this, he'd fight me (and win), but I can say that the best friends I've ever had and will have are my brothers. Being in California without both of them was pretty depressing. I remember a couple days before I left California, I was in a quiet home walking around and I swore that I could see holograms of my past as I took one more tour around Casa De Los Reyes. I saw where I punched  hole in the wall.. Where Carl popped a zit on me because I had great skin, I saw where Ryne got his head stuck in the stair railings.

A song lyric popped into my head just now "Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up." It's sad to think that the best days of my life are behind me. No.. they definitely are behind me. The world didn't get any more boring as I grew older, my brain is just a lot harder to entertain. "Sometimes it's the boring stuff that I remember the most," Russell From Up. Inventing games, kicking a ball for hours, videogames.. Nothing has brought me more meaningless joy from when I was a kid. I remember thinking that I could not wait to get out of my house and live on my own. I had a pretty deprived childhood having no privacy whatsoever in a house with my grandparents, 2 aunts, 2 brothers, and my parents. Its like we had three sets of parents. And now that I'm apart from them, I can't wait to see them again. Funny how that works out huh? You never know what you got till it's gone.

My job sucks. I wish that was gone. But I KNOW God is trying to teach me something. Or a couple of things. Like humility, patience, and about drawing me towards him more, and seeking opportunities to serve even in the darkest places (The IRS). Maybe that's it? Cus I don't know if you knew this, but I don't do too well in being humble. Maybe that's why God took me out of California in the first place? Maybe.. maybe maybe.. All I know is when the Iowa chapter of my life goes away, I'll know exactly what I had... But for now, I'm just living it, and right now it's okay.

Being in Iowa is not the happiest all the time It's definitely not killing be, but it's definitely making me stronger.

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